Effortless

A few nights ago I felt overwhelmed by everything. Work was crazy, home life was crazy, and I was beginning to think that I was crazy for uprooting everything and moving back to Alaska. Going away to Europe for six months? Coming back to my parents house? In two days I had completely turned my life upside down. So I went for a drive. The streets were empty which is one thing I love about Eagle River. I drove up the valley and as I turned a corner looked towards the sillouhette of the mountains against the sky. It was the most beautiful sky I have ever seen. It looked like a painting, like something out of a fairy tale. The sky was a dark navy blue, the stars were glittering, and thin transparant clouds swirled among the twinkling lights. Like feathers and jewels strewn accross an deepm inky canvas. I was overcome by its beauty, overwhelmed by the fact that something so beautiful naturally and effortlessly exists. A wide smile was on my face and I felt warm tears stream down my cheeks. I had to pull over and stop my car. I felt overcome with gratitude to be exactly where I was at that exact moment in time. I was laughing and crying. Effortlessly, marvelously, excruciatingly happy. How amazing it is that such beauty exists simply for us to admire.

And I knew that I would be okay.