Spain, Morocco, Thoughts and Things

I really should keep up with this better.

What can I say about the last two months? It seems like I should have a lot to say. I've been traveling a lot, seeing new places, making really great new friends...but when I try to write about it my mind is strangely blank.

I love Cadiz. Certain things are taking some time to get used to, and other things I sort of doubt I will really ever get used to. But the good overwhelming outweighs the bad...and I am having many good days.

I've been to Ronda, Girbaltar, Medina, Tarifa, Tangier, Lisbon, Sintra, and Belem this far. Traveling has been a blur. I am seeing so much and going so many places in such a short amount of time. No wonder 2 months have slipped away.

Morocco was interesting. Traveling only 12 miles from Tarifa to Tangier brought instant, drastic cultural changes. Women completely covered from head to toe, men selling drugs in the street, and the distant sounds of the mosque at prayer time.

The only things that makes it hard sometimes is that here I have a lot of time to think. The language is definitely a barrier and my mind is sometimes the only place I can rest. I've had a lot of time to think about things. Things that have happened to me, things I've yet to deal with, things that should never have happened. But I feel a bit hopeless at the same time. What can I really do now? I sure did put off working through some things. But I don't even know what sort of process one goes through to get over something. Can I just wait and let time do its magic?

So anyways...I really should blog more. A lot has been happening, but my life remains mostly tranquil. I realize that I am not living in the real world. This is an escape from the ordinary, which I surely will return to.

And when I feel overwhelmed by the things that scare me I try to remember my favorite places. The mountains, the sun, my best friend's house during the long summer nights. When I am scared I breathe through those moments and remember just how happy I can truly be.